Sigh.

That is the best title I could come up with to adequately convey my mood. Just sigh. That's it. Lately I have been working like gangbusters on a start up company with one of my old bosses that started Cornerstone Homes. Anyway, he left the company about 2 years ago (maybe more), took a break and he is now back at it with a new idea and new company. More details on that later. It's exciting to be in the thick of it, but right now I am worn out and need a little "me" time. I suppose this will have to do.

Since I have been working more hours & on new things I haven't tackled before I've had the opportunity to learn some things about myself. Some good, some bad, but all helpful I suppose.

The name of the company is Loop and I am designing the ENTIRE website. Until now, I'd never designed a website & really didn't think my skills were up to the task. Turns out they are. I was super intimidated but between online help & supportive web guys, I've got it figured out & have learned a lot along the way. To be honest, I think that's cool.

This past week I have probably been working the equivalent of a full time job in addition to Zack. I NEVER would have thought that would have been possible with me remaining semi-sane. There have been a few late nights, but really...I've been able to get a TON done during his naps. I'm grateful he's been sleeping delightfully & that I've had the discipline to work while he's sleeping. Plus, I think Heavenly Father's helped quite a bit here...let's be honest, it's probably not a coincidence that this company timed just right with when we are living with my parents. Grateful for that. Plus, I think Heavenly Father's definitely helped me to bridge some gaps...I've been able to pick up the new things I need to learn quickly, my discipline has really increased, as has my patience, AND I've still been able to do the fun things with Zack that I can never give up. Thankful for a loving Heavenly Father who knows my needs better than I do.

Scot's been super busy with work as well. So at night we both end up tired & maybe a tad ornery. I've learned I actually have a kind bone in my body and believe it or not, I can usually muster up some sympathy...which is quite big of me. Mind you...I still have miles to go on both kindness & sympathy. I would not consider either of them my strong points, but recognition is the first step, right?

I've also learned to appreciate Zack! He's been so agreeable and easy while I try to get these things under wraps. This week we weaned him off his bottles & he hasn't even held a protest! He just goes with it. Grateful for that. He is growing up so fast that I just can't believe it. I feel like I need to soak it all up before its gone. And while I have been working lots I feel like my days are longer because I still get all my time with Zack. Weird...maybe that doesn't make sense, but it does in my head. He is so curious & often times will crawl up on to my lap to see whatever it is I am doing, or to show me what it is he has. And while it may be easy to shoo him away & continue with whatever it is, I know one day I'll miss this curiosity & sweet inquisitiveness. I've learned to take the time to let him see & it has been so fun to hear his silly noises of acknowledgment & understanding. Grateful for a boy that love his mom & wants to do whatever it is she's doing. What could be better?