Evolution

I'm not sure where to start on this post, so I suppose I'll just jump right in -- hopefully you can follow along!

I'm at a place right now where there is always an internal battle going on. Here's my dilemma & start to a solution. We'll start with my blog. It is really the only thing that is completely mine & I feel like it is 1-dimensional. It revolves around me as a wife & mother, which are the 2 most important roles, but they aren't the only things in my life. So there might be some changes around here. Feel free to tune in or out. You're call.

The other roles -- hmm. It is hard to categorize & get it on paper, but again here's my attempt. It is easy for me to look around myself & realize I've been dealt a pretty sweet hand in life. I don't mean that in an arrogant way because it hasn't been my own doing that has allowed me the opportunities I've been blessed with. But lately, it has been all too easy for me to downplay my roles & responsibilities in life. Shrugging things off as too hard, too much or too involved for "just" a stay-at-home mom (that "just" is like nails on a chalkboard for me).

So anyway, I am shedding my self-doubt and realizing I have been abundantly blessed & it is my responsibility to do something with it. I'm sure there will be some failures along the way & as opposed to covering those up or hiding them away, I'm going to share them. Because there are also going to be some successes on this journey & the failures make the successes so much sweeter. This is hard for me to do. It is hard for me to put myself out here in this way, but here goes.

First off, I've joined Pickens Plan -- I've already invited some of you. I don't know if this is the best idea or solution to our nation's energy crisis, but I think it is a start & a good place to begin some dialog. I'm impressed with T. Boone Pickens ambition, initiative & ability to express himself. Why do we (meaning I) assume someone else will solve the problem when we (again I) am perfectly capable of being involved? Check it out & let me know what you think -- even if you disagree, that's part of generating a solution.